Tomorrow is a big day for us. We are about to embark on a new journey. The journey of two little girls batting their eyes, showing us their big lips and begging for whatever it is they want at that moment. Baby Evie is going to make her big debut into this crazy world. And as I think about that it brings on so many mixed emotions.
Don't get me wrong, I am so excited to finally meet this little creature that I have had the pleasure of housing for the last 9 months. I have imagined her with dark hair and green eyes. I think she'll look a bit like Addison just not so big! I have a hunch that it will be a little harder this time to nurse and sleep through the night. No matter what the outcome of all these things, I feel blessed to be having another healthy baby.
It does bring tears to my eyes though to think that Addison went to bed tonight an only child for the last time. That she is closing her bright blue eyes not understanding that tomorrow another family member will join our team. That she won't get all the attention. It doesn't seem fair to me. Isn't that funny. I know she'll be an amazing big sister once she gets it all figured out. I know she'll love up on Evie like I can't. And as they grow I know she will show her the ropes, teach her about puppies and beat her up. I just wish that she had a little bit of an idea that tomorrow her world is going to be rocked!
I am very thankful that my mom is going to be able to spend the week with us to help smooth out this transition period. She'll be arriving tomorrow night and staying until next week on Friday. Her soul purpose is to love up on Addison while I am with Evie and vise versa. My mom is great with her grand kids and they ADORE her. I love when Addie sees my mom for the first time in a couple weeks and shrieks! She gives my mom these hugs that Billy and I have never had the privilege of having. It's a special thing she does just for Grandma Penny. It's fantastic and it melts my heart!
I'm trying to savor these last few hours with Evie in my belly. I'm trying to burn into my memory the kicks, hiccups and heartburn! I don't ever want to forget how much I love being an incubator, even though these last weeks have been hard. This is my last pregnancy. Now I know I've said that before but I mean it this time! Billy and I feel so blessed after my cancer to have two little girls.
So I'm off to bed. In less then 10 hours I will be on my way to the hospital. Please say your prayers for our family. That everyone has a smooth delivery and more importantly, please pray that Addison adjusts to her new sister. I know for one change is hard.
