For Better and For Worse.

Tomorrow is my anniversary. Three years of married life, two kids and a few big life changes. I remember the day quite well. It was fun, really fun. It was filled with family and friends. Dancing, laughing and celebrating. A lot of people gave us advice and I wish we would have listened a little harder.

Marriage isn't what I thought it would be. I am not sure what I thought but it is harder then I ever thought. It isn't what you see in the movies. You don't have an argument and then laugh it off. You actually fight. Yell. Get mad. Cry. Say things you regret. And then you have to apologize. And again, unlike the movies, you don't forget. You remember the fight, the words and the pain.

Marriage takes work. It takes forgiveness. It takes patience. And it takes remembering that you are different people living in a house. You are going to have fights. You are going to hurt. You are going to say things you regret and hear things that hurt. You deal with real life issues: money, kids, jobs, stress, fears.

But you never face life alone. There is always someone at your side. You get through the hard times to face the good times. Where there is rain there is a rainbow. There is always going to be another storm but the nice thing about marriage is the longer you are together the better prepared you are to face it.

There is a reason that there is a vow that says, "for better/for worse" because there are going to be both times.

Who I am.

I am an emotional person.
I cry. A LOT.
I hurt often.
I love completely.
I laugh loudly.
I cheer for the underdog.
I believe there is good in everyone.
I am a great mom.
I get lonely.
I am a mama's girl.
I can't be anyone I'm not.
I am trying to figure out who I am.