Stay on track...

Thoughts for the day:

I know it's been a while. It's been hard for me to take a topic and actually stick on the subject lately. There is just so many different things going on right now in the world and I can't seem to focus on one thing at a time. I blame a lot of it on being pregnant but after doing some research I've learned that there is no connection between forgetfulness and pregnancy. (That study must have been done by a man!)

It's been a long week. We are trying to get out of our lease in Mason City so our landlord is "trying" to sell it. Our neighbors are constantly causing trouble and our rent is way to much money. I love our house but I wish we would have looked a little longer when we first moved here. We felt like we were under such pressure to find a place to live and get moved in a week. Why, I'm not sure, but it's true. Anyway, we've been cleaning this house and trying to keep it that way with a 1 year old who likes to undo everything we redo. We've been up late into the night, well past 9:00, cleaning and organizing our stuff. Today is the last day of cleaning before the next big open house on Saturday and I'm praying (and would appreciate if you would too) that someone walks in here and falls in love with the place so I don't have to pay my greedy landlord another penny!

Besides that sleep has been a thing of the past lately. Okay, I'll admit that we've have it super easy with Addison. The girl started sleeping 6 hours at a time at 4 days old. Her first day home I woke her up every 3 hours to eat because the nurse told me I should! After I told my mom and she told me to let her sleep and see what happens. Well, my life then consisted of a full nights sleep. Lately, that isn't happening. I am not sure if it's that she realized she's in a big girl bed all of a sudden, if she is getting hungry in the middle of the night or if she is having night terrors. She wakes up screaming this bloody murder scared scream that literally shakes me to the bone. Normally she wants Billy to cuddle her and then she ends up falling asleep in our bed. Normally I'd be okay with this but I'm 6 months pregnant and have heartburn that is burning through my esophagus. When I do actually fall asleep it isn't the best sleep I've ever had.

Well, last night was no different. After tossing and turning while trying to sleep laying down I propped myself up with 9 pillows got comfy and tried to sleep sitting up. I watched 2 movies and a couple Real Housewives of New Jersey episodes (like mother like daughter, right) and was just starting to fall asleep when the whaling started from Addison's room. I woke up Billy and he went in there, picked her up and brought her into our room. She laid her head on my belly and Evie started kicking! It was an amazing moment, like Evie knew Addie was there with us, but I was so tired and all I wanted was some sleep! Finally, Addie and I both fell asleep (Bill never really "woke-up") to only be woken up 2 hours later by Billy's phone!! Needless to say, I'm tried.

I feel like this is God's way of preparing me for having two children. I've decided that I need to get used to having someone wake me up every 2 hours and needing me to sit up, love them, feed them and cuddle them back to sleep. Something I never got to do with Addie. I'm strangely looking forward to spending this time with Evie and hope that it causes us to bond. I'm a little nervous that Evie won't have the same relationship with me that Addison does because she's second. She's going to have to compete for my time and energy. I look forward to those alone moments with her.

I know I can't stay on subject. I know I can't remember what I went upstairs for. And I know I can't get more then 2 hours of sleep at a time. I guess your just going to have to do your best to follow my amazing ramblings until this baby comes out. Maybe then I'll get my brain back or more likely, I won't have a brain at all!